5 years ago today my husband took me out on our first date. We had pizza and I remember ordering a soda which I never do. So he in turn ordered one as well, which he never does. After dinner we walked around town for hours, talking, laughing and planning our next date. If you had asked me then if my life would look like this in 5 years I would have highly doubted it.
Yesterday Jeremy "let" me go shopping for a couple hours while Seth napped. Seth has hit the age where we don't have many clothes in his size, so I headed off to our used children's clothes store to get him a few things and then I went to Old Navy to find a few summer items for myself. It was nice to spend some time alone. On my way home I heard this song. It's been a favorite ever since my Mom made me listen to it a couple months ago, but it hit something inside of me yesterday. When the song ended, I switched the station and there it was again - okay, God.
I couldn't fight the tears. I cranked the volume and sang as loud as I could there in the car, all alone. My life hasn't gone exactly the way I had imagined it would. I'm sure my parents would agree to that. I had many mountains, valleys and more bumps than I can count. And I've always wondered why I did the things I did and why God allowed me to go through everything. So, how did I end up here? It hits me often, while watching Seth play or hearing my husband cook breakfast. I don't deserve any of this. Thinking back to our first date and all that I hoped and prayed it would become.....to now have all of that plus SO much more (like the cutest, sweetest little boy I've ever laid eyes on) - it brings tears to my eyes and gives me an absolutely overwhelming feeling inside.
Our God is an awesome, merciful God.
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