2018

Have you guys seen the posts going around with people sharing what their word is for the year? Whether it be for work or personal goals, I've been seeing so many people choosing a word to focus on. I thought about this a lot, but do you know how hard it is to choose ONE word?!? There are just too many words that are suitable and have intense meaning. Faith. Determination. Motivation. Believe. Focus. Balance. Hope. Love. Perseverance. I came to the realization that mine couldn't be just one word. But it could be a verse. It's this verse.

"What do you mean, 'If I can'?" Jesus asked. "Anything is possible if a person believes." The father instantly cried out,
"I do believe, but help me overcome my unbelief!" 

Mark 9:23-24

I'll be honest with you guys. I love the start of a New Year. Does anyone else get super excited to pull out a brand new, empty, clean planner?! It is pure joy when I buy a new one and get to go through it to mark holidays, birthdays and events. The new year means a fresh start. An empty slate. A new beginning. But, we are just a few weeks into the year and I feel defeated. I've been hit countless times already. 

Amidst all of the curve balls and gut punches, I've had some great reminders of God's promises and love, too. I left my wallet at Walmart one day. Where or how I have no idea. 2 hours later when we realized it and went back to the store, I fought back the tears as we drove there and as we waited at the counter and then I full on ugly cried when they brought it to me. I prayed the whole way there that God would have allowed someone to hand it in. My phone was in there. Everything was in there. God please don't let us take another hit. He didn't. He had me. Jeremy and I have been obsessively binge watching one of my favorite shows that I bought myself for my birthday. While watching it one night I was overwhelmed at how different my life could look right now had God allowed it to take a different turn. I could be so unhappy right now.
I could not be here right now.

I can not tell you the amount of times that the Lord has come through for me in my life. How many times He has shown His hand just since Jeremy and I have been married. So, so, so, so, so many times! He has given us what we needed, when we needed it, almost to the penny (if it was financial), time and time again. So when I say that I believe, oh do I believe! But for some reason that doesn't stop me from fretting and worrying and stressing about every little thing! GAH! I hate it!

There are so many things that we WANT to do.

There are so many things that we NEED to do.

There are so many things that we have to GET through.

There are so many things that we are WAITING for.

And God is above all of it.
He is ahead of me. Making a way for me.
And His way has proven time and time again to be way better than anything I could plan.